Sunday, May 30, 2010

This has been a difficult week for me. Last Sunday after feeding my guys my daughter, Julaine, picked me up and I stayed at her house for the night. I really needed to get out. Qhile at her house Jason grilled us a delicious dinner of hamburgers and chicken with some grilled asparagus. It was so good I'll have to have John grill us some asparagus sometime soon. I spent some time with my adorable Granddaughter and after she was in bed. The three of us watched Avatar. I don't usually sleep to well at her house but that doesn't really matter because the reason I go there is to spend time with Julaine and Jason and of course Addison. In the wee morning hours I started reading a new book "The Time Traveler's Gift. I really like it so far. Julaine brought me back home about 1:30. We fixed Donald dinner and sent him off to work-- this week he's on second shift. About 3:30 in the afternoon my mother-in-law fell and she burst open some clots just under the skin and she was bleeding and I couldn't stop it. she also couldn't put any weight on her one leg. I decided to call 911. They bandaged her arm and took her to the emergency room. I was babysitting Addison so when they called about 7 I explained that I couldn't get there before 10:00 pm. I also asked them if she could walk. They said she couldn't and I expressed my concern about how I would care for her if she couldn't walk. They decided to admit her in the hospital to run further test since the X-ray was fine.
Tuesday morning Don and I went to the hospital to see mom and they told us she was going to be released and they ran a few test. One for a bladder infection and at cat scan on her brain because she was so confused. To make a long story short she is now at Mapleridge nursing home because it seems the veins in her legs seeped out some blood into the muscles and have dried and it's suppose to be very painful and that is why she can't put weight on her leg and hence she can't walk. She will have therapy and they are hoping to bring her back to be able to walk. I have visited her several days now and each time I go she cries and begs me to bring her home. My emotions are raw. Now this was all hard enough but as of yesterday Donald is layed off and it could be until October. We're hoping with all the vacations in July and August that they call him in but we're expecting a long haul.

This Sunday the lesson I taught in gospel doctrine was on Ruth and Naomi and with everything that was going on with my own mother-in-law I did not get throught he lesson without a few tears. I have mixed emotions about all this. It's hard to have her out of our house because she seems so helpless and to put her into someone else hands to care for is difficult but at the same time it's a relief not to have that responsibility. It has not been easy taking care of her and there were times when I was so frustrated that I yelled at her even though I knew she couldn't help what she did to frustrate me. I don't know whether she'll be returning even if she does get the strength in her legs back Don feels it would be best for everyone if she stays in the nursing home.